Letter To Unknown.

Dear Reader,

I'm sorry I screwed things up.

I'm sorry I was bitter towards you when you broke off the plans.

I'm sorry I cared too much.

I'm sorry I ever hoped for something more than what we already had.

Somehow, I wish I could take back what I said...

and maybe even some things that I did.

Anything that hinted at the relationship type that I knew you weren't ready for.

I'm sorry I let my heart get tangled up in your gaze.

I'm sorry I cried tears over the fact that I couldn't see your face.

I'm sorry for the dreams I had that ripped my heart into pieces.

I'm sorry for the sleepless nights that caused me so much hurt.

Damn...

I'm sorry I cared so much.

The truth is:

I love you too much to trust in anything clearer.

I wish my heart hadn't gotten so caught up in you, my dear...

and now that it has, I hope it's not too late to apologize.

Sincerely,

Sorry (lyrics that grasp my thoughts... better than my own.)

Oh I had a lot to say

Was thinking my time away

I miss you when things weren't the same

Cause everything inside,

It never comes out right,

And when I see you cry,

It makes me wanna die,

I'm sorry I'm bad,

I'm sorry I'm blue,

Sorry about all the things I said to you,

And I know,

I can't take it back,

I love how you kiss,

I love all your sounds,

And the way you make my world go round,

And I just wanted to say,

I'm sorry

This time, I think I'm to blame,

It's harder to get through the days,

You get older and blame turns to shame,

Cause everything inside,

It never comes out right,

And when I see you cry,
It makes me wanna die,

I'm sorry I'm bad,
I'm sorry I'm blue,
Sorry about all the things I said to you,
And I know,
I can't take it back,
I love how you kiss,
I love all your sounds,
And the way you make my world go round,
And I just wanted to say,
I'm sorry

And every single day,

I think about how we came all this way,

The sleepless nights,

And the tears you cried,

It's never too late to make it right,

Oh yeah, sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad,
I'm sorry I'm blue,
Sorry about all the things I said to you,
And I know,
I can't take it back,
I love how you kiss,
I love all your sounds,
And the way you make my world go round,
And I just wanted to say,
I'm sorry

I'm sorry baby,

I'm sorry baby,

Yeah, I'm sorry.

Coffee's Never Strong Enough.

Why would you think that of me

Why am I the only one who hurts

Where else to turn to but the sky

Why is this pain so continuous

What makes you want to rip me apart

Better yet,

What have I done?

Honestly?

I finally understand the words to my song
It occured to me that I had lost them

Unsure of whether the blood still flows
To make sure, you make it run

Now that you are sure
Comfort fills your head, but only my head

Times where you handle a knife

Push it into your skin

Somewhere in the deep of my heart
I have to know you've become exact

I thought this time would change it all
That losing streak that encompasses my life

It becomes a mindless realization
Factual that I become discarded scene reels

Sure I want to know what you think
But not if it comes to your fears

It makes me wonder why I've become the one
The one that's heart gets ripped in pieces

Pieces to small to be recognizable
Pieces that won't be completely glued

Honestly, You should care not where I go
Only because you won't follow me.

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My hair smells like the rain
After your kiss, you run your fingers through it
A shiver runs down my spine
I wonder how it could get any better than this

Of course I miss you
You are only gone a second
Then returning with that smile
I fell, in love with it
Before I'm gone our eyes lock
And you follow me out the door

We run away into the dark
As you walk me to my house
There you hold me for what seems like forever
Only a second at the same instance
If only it could last that long

Only shallow words can seem so deep
Only happiness can quench the sores
Only love can heal the scars
From the hate that once burned
We've hidden in the light
I want you to hold my hand

In my deserted backyard
You stood staring into the pitch darkness of night
We finally located the door
I only wished you could come inside
Not alone

You know where to find me
Under my window in the dark
I can only dream of you
Without a wink of sleep
Hearing your voice
The familiar tap of pebbles hitting the glass

Another surprise that I had always wished for
Never received it, you would;
You seem to know me better than I could ever know myself
Sometimes

Other times, I dream of you
Tonight
Hoping to hold your hand

Slow Dance In A Red Dress

I let the water burn me
I wanted to feel the pain
I knew you had hurt me
but I became numb to the hurt.

I liked how it felt with you
Your arm around my waist
The world held in your eyes
You wouldn't let go, I was happy.

You and her, in love, you say?
It only lasted a week, you know
She didn't feel like you did for her
I don't guess that's what you planned.

She broke it off because you didn't call
Of course you wouldn't, you only think about you
come with me; move with the music
Slow
lyrical
beautiful on your lips.

Dancing in the Rain is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Ripping Her Heart Out

My thoughts are turned
Cause my heart says so
I claim I'd die for you
Sure it's true, whatever.

For once, it rained

When I wanted it

After the dry heat

It came, I cried.

When I needed you the most

You never were there

All I wanted was to hear your voice

Come back to me and I'll

Return to you.

I lost seventeen games

It was solitary

In the confinement

Of my thoughts.

An ulcer developed

From the pain of

Your sweet laughter

And your neverending smile.

There were shadows

When you left and

The gray clouds moved in

Just let it pour.

I'm wasting away

Something's turning wrong

I could feel it

My presumptions right.

Confusion of rain and tears.

I'll cry.

You'll leave.

Don't let it end.

That's how it will play.

Don't make this our

Last goodbye

Let me feel you again

And let the rain fall.

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I think maybe if you loved me half as much as I love you,
We could wish we were older,
At least old enough to run away together.

But you don't, so take my hand for now,
and lace your fingers in mine,
even if it's not right,
how it feels,
it could still be a comfort.

I guess I'm just a fly on your wall,
the kind you just watch and hope it goes away,
this time,
though,
it has a name.

When I was little,
I used to dream.
Dream of these fields of wildflowers with yellow petals,
there,
among the dragonflies I'd rove.

Now,
as I think of how innocent that dream was,
I imagine it again, but,
this time,
It holds you there.

We just stand,
in th middle of God's creation,
wondering if we will ever find our place in this forsaken world,
one day,
maybe not.

I guess I always think that maybe we already have obtained,
that purpose,
that maybe that's how God wanted it to be.

Sometimes I like to think you are my purpose,
in life,
and all you need is a little time to realize it.

But now,
as we stand with our fingers laced,
I look into your deep eyes full of concern,
and see life.

Not the kind of life that everyone discusses,
not babies,
or grass,
but more sun-like life.

It's like the light that always appears after a moonless night,
the brightest kind imaginable,
the kind we can't understand.

That gave me hope for today.
Enough hope to make me spin around in my room and hope to see you again.

I broke after that,
because,
I realized that the hand I held was cold,
it held departure.

Then,
you left me,
but it wouldn't be the first itme,
or the last;
hope,
because your smile means the world to me.

Faith might be all I have left now.

Blondie (Baby, It's Just Like You)

When you talked to me,
you made me feel like you would hold your promise,
and not let me go, but somehow,
I was wrong, yet again, and I'm left to
cry myself to sleep.

The words you said kept me hoping they were true,
and kept me thinking you were worth the wait,
but you took the poems that screamed,
from your lips, the ones you promised me,
and threw them to the rain.

{CHORUS}
Just like you, again,
to let me down,
Just like you, again,
to make my frown,
Just like you, again,
I'll bet she's better,
Just like you, again,
she's blonde, so go get her.
Baby...
It's just like you.

Sometimes I wish you'd have followed through,
it would have made it worse, but of course,
broken hearts aren't fixable,
they kill like your cheap cologne,
and it's just too funny to watch me cry.

{CHORUS}

Who cares? Apparently no one,
because rejection is the story of mjy life.
I'm just not good enough, not just for you,
but for everyone, it might only appear so,
but everything ends up at my door.

{CHORUS}

I was warned, yet I didn't heed the warning,
they all said you just weren't worth it.
I knew in the pit of my heart, it would be ripped,
ripped apart, and apologies just aren't enough.

{CHORUS}

{BRIDGE}
You claim that I deserve better than you,
if that's so true, why all the promises?

Whatever happened to the plans we made?
I guess you just couldn't wait on the weather.

It meant more to me than you'll ever comprehend;
I wish you weren't worth the tears.

{PRE CHORUS}
Help me cope with the pains.
Whatever happened to your eyes?
The reasons we felt like this
and the love we thought could never die
{CHORUS}

{TAG}
Baby, it's just like you,
you let me down,
there's nothing to be done,
not to ease the pain.

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I know how it feels to have the tears you cry feel like razors slitting your throat.
For the cold saltiness feel like you're being choked, because you are.
You sputter and gasp, but there's nothing you can do.

You know, well, maybe you don't, those times where you just wish you could fast forward, just a bit.
So that the hurt didn't hurt anymore.
I know how it feels to cry so much that you can't hold your insides in anymore, so you keel over.
And let it all come loose.

It's like you are unable to grasp anything.
Not the wall beside you or the hand from a companion.
You just fall and shake like there's no tomorrow.