You run through my mind like an unknowingly unloaded gun.
I'm truly terrified.

Why-Secondhand Serenade

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

Play

As gravity plays games with my heart,
My heart unfolds tricks on my mind

I don't want to put up with the madness,
The insanity that surrounds you

The ins and outs of romance,
The unforgiving sport of courtship

Consider the hearts at rest,
The ones that search and never find

Maybe we'll be fortunate to be one of these,
No matter how hard we dream for the counter.

Good Woman-Cat Power

I want to be a good woman
And I want, for you to be a good man.
This is why I will be leaving
And this is why, I can’t see you no more.
I will miss your heart so tender
And I will love
This love forever

I don’t want be a bad woman
And I can’t stand to see you be a bad man
I will miss your heart so tender
And I will love
This love forever
And this is why I am leaving
And this is why I can’t see you no more
This is why I am lying when I say
That I don’t love you no more

Cause I want to be a good woman
And I want for you to be a good man

I can't refuse to go to sleep,
but I musn't stay awake
I decidedly immerse myself in the nights we shared
Save the blade for someone
Who's skin can take the pain...
Unlike my own.

I've got a pounding headache and a heavy,
reeling heart full of pain
my desire is short,
but my soul longs for it,
the desire that comes ever so regretfully.

Let's throw away our life together
As we all become silhouettes of what we used to be

The Last Time He Saw Dorie

I would like to say for his sake that the last time he saw Dorie was after his mind collapsed. As the rest of us know, it was at that very moment that his heart was broken in two pieces, or a million in his finite mind. They seemingly crashed to the floor one by one, with no one there to catch them. I stood there as if there was nothing I could do. If I felt as if there was something to be done at that point, I would have acted upon it. Yet, I stood there, like the fool I now realize I am, and stared. As he collapsed on the floor in two hundred different pieces, some more whole than others, he wept. In all my years of knowing Oliver, which is a good many, I have never seen him cry. Not once did I see him shed a tear. Many times I would have liked to say I saw a slight misty-eyed gaze, but deep down, I knew it was only my fantasies running away with me. He crumbled like someone had pierced him in the stomach with a double edged sword. She had disappeared. She was gone. What he told me that hurt the most, was that she never knew. He had never told her. Cliche, I know, but the night she ended her wreck of a life, he loved her. Why he loved her, one will never know. He claimed it was for her beauty, inside and out, yet we never saw it. God only knows what truly made him love her. Maybe it was that she was a wreck. He felt the impulse to rescue the damsel in distress. He was a wreck as well, so the knight in shining armor was never his stage to dance upon. He said, "I didn't want to stay." He didn't. He left her because nothing in his head truly made sense anymore. It all convulged, diverged into something that he soon realized would only be understood by Dorie. That is why when he found her, when he saw her for the last time, when she ended it all for the world, he splintered.
Cracked.
Crumbled.
Fragmentized.
Dissolved.

He's in love with tragedy,
in love with tragedy
She was a wreck, but he loved her
She was a wreck, but so was he
And the last time he saw Dorie,
he didn't know what to say but

"Thank you because you loved me,
it's all on me cause I didn't want to stay,
I didn't want to stay..."

"Live, live, live because you love, love, love
And love will make you give, give, give
And give in when you break, break, break
But you just want to fix yourself
Just to break again..." She said.

"Ask me if I'm sick and I would lie, I'm a mess, I'll tell you 'bout it later..." -Modern Skirts

"You turned your eyes to me, I felt it all..." -Sea Wolf

"It's what you didn't say that told me I'd get hurt again..." -I Nine

There's a burden in my chest that ceases not towards me
My cares it does not take upon itself
Nor does it yield to burning pains

A fire in my gut has started yearning
The being of becoming self has withered
And still the shame of loss haunts me

It moves in slow meanders as it creeps in towards my head
Its quiet footsteps weigh upon my mind
Yet whatever has become inside me cries

"Mercy," my poor heart screams, "Mercy to us all..."
"Careful, dear, my wholeness may be shattered."
Then, one by one, the pieces start to fall

As the short lived downfall's darkness falls on me
My face begins to crumble, carefully
(of course, ne'er does he notice...warily)

It's A Sad Day In Baltimore When There's A Slow Death In Carolina

If you take a part of your wearisome road,
You could place it at my feet
And I'll slowly become a part of you,
Just before it's too late.

Our paths would merge and fork,
It would transform into a beautiful mirage
If only you would walk the streets at night,
Under the light from an eclipsed red moon.

Our hearts have been broken,
When the lights have faded
Take a look inside,
We've become outspoken and unadored.

It's left to a footnote of my love for you,
A meager wrinkle in the span of a lifetime
The time has come to part in seperate ways, love,
Yet, it won't last long enough.

I've watched my heart cry piece by piece
As the minutes on the clock tick by
Light my tears on fire to hide the loss
Little by little, it all becomes whole again.

Your False Faces and Your Outlandish Truths

Give it to me straight for once
Without the fake smiles and the lies

Our world has become one big false sphere
It's full of all your lies

Maybe it's outlandish to think someone would
Speak the truth for a second, maybe shorter

Peering towards the past and asking
"What has this become"

It's something resembling multiple personality disorder
But we seem to all have that at times

Would it be too much to ask for honesty?
Is it something too difficult to provide?

It's not like you couldn't be who you are all the time
It's not nearly as hard as it sounds

Are we too hung up on acceptance
Does popularity ring a bell?

My Checkered Vans

It's not like me to worry about things
Especially when they don't concern me
It's a wonder why I cared so much
Only if it pertained to your safety
Maybe it's something to be thought over
Maybe not so much

It would be nice to think you are different
It's nice to know you are that person
Not a doormat
Not an arrogant male
But the person I always wished I could be
Afraid of Nothing

You really could sneak into my window
Tonight if you wish
It would be worth all that distance you speak of
I promise to make it worth what you came for
Not that it would be a challenge
I just long to see your smile.

You're my hour... it will come.