The Last Time He Saw Dorie

I would like to say for his sake that the last time he saw Dorie was after his mind collapsed. As the rest of us know, it was at that very moment that his heart was broken in two pieces, or a million in his finite mind. They seemingly crashed to the floor one by one, with no one there to catch them. I stood there as if there was nothing I could do. If I felt as if there was something to be done at that point, I would have acted upon it. Yet, I stood there, like the fool I now realize I am, and stared. As he collapsed on the floor in two hundred different pieces, some more whole than others, he wept. In all my years of knowing Oliver, which is a good many, I have never seen him cry. Not once did I see him shed a tear. Many times I would have liked to say I saw a slight misty-eyed gaze, but deep down, I knew it was only my fantasies running away with me. He crumbled like someone had pierced him in the stomach with a double edged sword. She had disappeared. She was gone. What he told me that hurt the most, was that she never knew. He had never told her. Cliche, I know, but the night she ended her wreck of a life, he loved her. Why he loved her, one will never know. He claimed it was for her beauty, inside and out, yet we never saw it. God only knows what truly made him love her. Maybe it was that she was a wreck. He felt the impulse to rescue the damsel in distress. He was a wreck as well, so the knight in shining armor was never his stage to dance upon. He said, "I didn't want to stay." He didn't. He left her because nothing in his head truly made sense anymore. It all convulged, diverged into something that he soon realized would only be understood by Dorie. That is why when he found her, when he saw her for the last time, when she ended it all for the world, he splintered.
Cracked.
Crumbled.
Fragmentized.
Dissolved.

He's in love with tragedy,
in love with tragedy
She was a wreck, but he loved her
She was a wreck, but so was he
And the last time he saw Dorie,
he didn't know what to say but

"Thank you because you loved me,
it's all on me cause I didn't want to stay,
I didn't want to stay..."

"Live, live, live because you love, love, love
And love will make you give, give, give
And give in when you break, break, break
But you just want to fix yourself
Just to break again..." She said.