Psalm 42:3-11

My tears have been my food day and night,

while men say to me all day long,

"Where is your God?"

These things I remember as I pour out my soul:

how I used to go with the multitude,

leading the procession to the house of God,

with shouts of joy and thanksgiving

among the festive throng.

Why are you downcast, O my soul?

Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God,

for I will yet praise Him

my Savior and my God.

My soul is downcast within me;

therefore I will remember you

from the land of the Jordan,

the heights of Hermon-from Mount Mizar.

Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls;

all your waves and breakers have swept over me.

By day the Lord directs his love

at night his song is with me-

a prayer to the God of my life.

I say to God my Rock,

"Why have you forgotten me?

Why must I go about mourning,

oppressed by the enemy?"

My bones suffer mortal agony

as my foes taunt me,

saying to me all day long,

"Where is your God?"

Why are you so downcast, O my soul?

Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God,

for I will yet praise Him,

my Savior and my God.

She Weeps over Rahoon

Rain on Rahoon falls softly, softly falling,

Where my dark lover lies.

Sad is his voice that calls me, sadly calling,

At grey moonrise.

Love, hear thou

How soft, how sad his voice is ever calling,

Ever unanswered, and the dark rain falling,

Then as now.

Dark too our hearts, O love, shall lie and cold

AS his sad heart has lain

Under the moongrey nettles, the black mould

And muttering rain.

James Joyce

Written on my soul is thy gesture

and all I desire to write about thee

thee thyself wrote it, I only read it

that even on that matter I follow thee

In that I am and shall be ever ready

cause even though I cannot cope with as much as I see in thee

from so much good, I believe in what I cannot understand

already taking the faith as a premise

I was not born but to love thee

my soul is patterned to thy measures

and because of my soul's habit I do love thee

I confess to owe thee all I have

for thee I was born, for thee I am alive

for thee I have to die, and for the I die.

Soneto V

Escrito esta en mi alma vuestro gesto,

y cuanto yo excribir de vos deseo:

vos sola lo escribisteis, yo lo leo

tan solo, que aun de vos me guardo en esto.

En esto estoy y estare siempre puest;

que aunque no cabe en mi cuanto en vos veo,

de tanto bien lo que no entiendo creo,

tomando ya la fe por presupuesto.

Yo no naci sino para quereros:

mi alma os ha crtado a su medida;

por habito del alma mismo os quiero.

Cuando tengo confieso yo deberos:

por vos naci, por vos tengo la vida,

por vos he de morir, y por vos muero.

-Garcilaso de la Vega

Don't do this. I guess I prepared myself for a heartache, but please... don't do this. Again.

Copeland-I'm Sucker For A Kind Word

I'd be hanging on their words

Like they almost meant a thing

In the only lullaby I heard,

Their sirens blaring, singing me to sleep

Holding my loved one tight

On the softness of her laugh,

I could almost make my bed

But the racket of her absence joined

The sirens blaring ringing in my head

Holding nothing tight

Holding nothing tight

With my eyes so wide

In a house without a back door

I was looking for a fire escape

And I'll be ripping up the floorboards

Just trying to get away

From this sleeplessness, sleeplessness, sleeplessness

She'd be hanging on my words

Like I almost meant a thing

And I'd give anything not to let her down

To finally sleep through just one noisy night

Holding her so tight, holding her so tight

But my eyes are wide

In a house without a back door

I was looking for a fire escape

And I'll be ripping up the floorboards

Just trying to get away

From this sleeplessness

Sleeplessness, Sleeplessness

Cause my mind just can't stop moving

And I think I know why

Oh, I know why

It's sad

But I'm a sucker for a kind word

And I'll just hurt until I find one

And I'll just hurt until I find one

And I've been trying all the windows

And I've been running up the staircase

In a house without a backdoor

Sleeplessness, sleeplessness, sleeplessness

In a house without a backdoor (Sleeplessness)

I was looking for a fire escape (Sleeplessness)

And I'd be ripping up the floorboards (Sleeplessness)

Just trying to get away...

Outside, the one star is shining

That star, my star reminds me of you

I remember the night we stood under its blanket

And watched the city lights pulse

As the rest appear, one by one

I'm lost in you

Helplessly devoted and gone

I miss you terribly. I know you're one of the reasons I'm incapable of finding joy. It's amazing how one person can be son incredibly life changing. I know you're searching... aren't we all. I mean seriously, if everything went the way we wished it would, life would be so boring. I just wish that sometimes, when things are more important to you than breathing air, we would get what we wanted. God has a plan. I know that. I just wish I knew what his plan was and how he was going to use me. Then again,  it goes back to the fact that life would be boring if we knew what was going to happen. 

Would you come back please? I need you in my life more than I can possibly tell you. You are integral to my sanity. I wish I was strong enough to do what's right. I wish I knew what was right. If you come back for good, I promise I'll be here. I always have been and always will be here for you. I'm not any more than what I've been all along. I've just been run through a meat grinder.

My blood is mustard colored

My veins run bone dry

They no longer run with you

And my heart is a falling parachute

I let your sweet air surge through me

As I stand looking at the open sky

With my hands wide open

And my heart wide shut.

I know I'm a mess

When I picture you out there

All of your heartstrings tied in knots

Your honesty is what I long for

The looks you used to give me

What do you run from?

Where do you think you'll find it?

The facts of life are simple

Yet, I know you only complicate things

First hand, I know everything you meant to say

All the small things only you and I understand

For me, it's more than only things untold

It's the things you did say that keep me holding on

I hope that you find me in the clouds

See my spirit soar through the flying sparrows

Discover my arms wrapped around you in the covers of your bed

And my love in your heart